Two Days of Rest Later…….

Well after two days of being posted up on the couch with a heating pad I feel much better. The pain has subsided and I feel back to normal. Just when you think you are indestructable something happens that knocks you down, I call this life! And it happens in every aspect of it! You just have to learn to roll with it, learn from every experience and move on! From this I have learned that it is not necessary for me to push myself beyond my limits at this time. I do not have anybody to impress but myself or rules to follow but my own. I am not giving up, I am not going to stop living my life out of fear. I will adjust and move forward.

From now on I will not be doing any challenges that does not allow for rest days. I will continue to listen to my body and give it the time and rest I need in order to completely heal without complications. Anything that happens at this point is my responsiblity. I am still learning how to treat my body!

Starting out easy with a walk tonight. I have also made the decision that as much as I dislike yoga its time to incorporate it into my life. Yoga is the best recovery workout and will help me with stretching and stregthning the areas that are now scar tissue without causing so much inflammation as weight lifitng has. Weight lifting is by far my favorite exercise, it will be hard to not revolve my entire workouts around it, but in order to remain healthy I must make lifting secondary, at least for now.

Hey Bitch, you had major surgery, take it easy why don’t ya?!

In two days it will be seven months since having my full hysterectomy. I never think about it, unless I’m having a panic attack about how I electively removed my own organs. But then I remember the pain and problems my cystic ovaries caused me every single month and that the onset of uterine fibroids were starting and I calm down and become confident and positive in my decision again.

My recovery has been relatively painless and uneventful, which has helped in me forgetting I even had surgery and I’m free to do whatever I want. Until I can’t. Your body has a miraculous way of communicating with you, if you only listen. I have only one real risk post op; prolapse. Because I removed my womb along with my cervix, I am now at a greater risk for having my vagina fall out. I think that is the scariest shit I’ve ever heard of in my life! So even though I don’t think about my surgery, or even of drop dead Fred anymore (refer to previous post concerning drop dead Fred) I do obsessively worry about my vagina falling out.

As soon as I was given the go ahead I dove back into working out. I love working out and especially lifting weights. I used to be a cardio queen but not anymore, now its all about how much can I squat. I have been doing really well too, progressively working out more and lifting more. Well I guess that’s too much too soon. Even at 7 months out. Starting a #30dayJunechallenge with my workout partner. And by day 8 my body said no more – not severe enough or anything telling me to run to the ER, no that will happen if I get fever and start to bleed out, no this is the new normal. Sharp pains in the incision areas with cramping that reaches all the way to my back and up to my shoulders. A heaviness in my groin that only others who have endured the same procedure understand. Burning that takes over my entire abdomen and itching, oh god the itching! All the signs of healing. 7 months later. I expect the severe fatigue, the hormone fluctuations, since that’s a cocktail that takes some time to perfect, but the actual physical healing, from the most non invasive procedure, the most uneventful surgery and textbook recovery any one could ask for, lasting for months, to all of sudden bam a slap to face reminding me “hey bitch, you had major surgery, take it easy why don’t ya”

So I’m listening, I’m resting, I’m taking a break. “you hear that vagina? Don’t you dare fall out on me!”

For now, no challenges, no deadlines, no record breaking work outs. Just day by day. And with a megaphone attached to my stomach listening for any signs of trouble. Hopefully I can work out in a couple of days, but for now I’m taking it easy and recovering……still!

A new day a new shake

WOW should’ve halved the avocado.

I absolutely love avocado, I must eat it every day and yet this shake is waaaay too thick with avocado. Definitely a sipper and will last the entire morning.

Recipe:

1 Avocado

1 cup of greens (kale and spinach)

1 cup of mixed fruit (mangos, pineapples, strawberries, blackberries)

1 tsp Spirulina and 1tsp Maca (www.organicburst.com)

Blend and enjoy!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Welcome to 2015!

One of my new years resolutions was to eat better, and what better way to eat better than to drink it!

The hubby and I are embarking on a juicing adventure. The first week is all about immunity health. We will be switching off between 2 recipes loaded with vitamin c, b6 and antioxidants, we should have this cold kicked in no time!

The first is pictured in the upper left corner, couldn’t stop drinking long enough to get a full cup picture. it is THAT good!

Vita-Berry Blast

50% Frozen berry mix (blackberries, raspberries, and strawberries, no sugar added, all natural)

50% Spinach

1 Banana

*Super easy to blend and enjoy

Immunity Blast

1 whole orange (rind and all)

1/2 lemon (rind and all)

1/2 lime (rind and all)

Chunk of ginger

dash of salt

2 tbsp. of Honey

WOW is all I can say! You really need to be a ginger fan for this one!! I can taste the cold getting kicked!

Boosters

I am using two boosters, both from OrganicBurst in my shakes; Maca (promotes energy and endurance), and Spirulina (nourish and nurture)

Please check out http://www.organicburst.com for more information.

Drop Dead Fred!!

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Drop Dead Fred – the history and the now.

Well being a girl sometimes sucks! So I just got word that drop dead Fred is back. Let me tell you a little about drop dead Fred: for years, decades really, I have been suffering with a pain in my stomach, pelvic and lower back. Yeah try determining what your affliction is with the 3 most common areas of pain. Every few months I would get severe pain and it would literally feel like I was carrying something inside my pelvic area. But everytime I went to the Dr and she would do a pap and the “press test” where they press on your ovaries and uterus and well hey “everything’s normal”!! I started to think I was either crazy or I was dealing with something else entirely, which led to a multitude of misdiagnosis, waste of money, and prescriptions that never needed to be taken in the first place! That is until I was finally referred by a coworker to the very awesome Dr. Alwan, OBGYN. I never thought about going to an OBGYN since my family dr always did my yearly physical and I have no children, nor any desire for them. Well first visit to Dr. Alwan they performed an ultrasound and as soon as the “wand” moved around my left ovary, both Chris (my soulmate) and myself pointed and shouted at the screen “WHAT IS THAT!?” Well THAT was a cyst, something that is common, very normal for a woman my age to have. But the level of pain I was experiencing was not normal. So Dr. Alwan and I decided to have surgery to remove the cyst. whats called a laparoscopy. This was March of 2013. Turned out I ended up having 4 cysts on my right ovary and 2 on the left. So Dr. Alwan drained them, common practice, sewed me up and I was good to go. He did inform me that there is no guarantee that they won’t return, in fact, typically surgery is a last resort not a first but since I have been in debilitating pain for close to a decade he wanted to go in and see for himself what he was dealing with. Typically the OBGYN will put you on birth control pills. Which I’ve been on since the age of 16. So obviously THAT was not helping me. I decided after the surgery to get the IUD, now I knew that the IUD would not prevent the cysts from coming back but I was hoping that it would help. I never in a million years thought I would be right back at square one a year and a half later! And in fact its worse!

Sept 15, exactly one week after the first day of my last period, which was completely normal, I started bleeding again! I wasn’t feeling right a few days leading up to this so I thought I was getting sick, well after seeing blood I freaked out and called the Dr office right away. They squeezed me in for the next day to see an OBGYN on staff, not Dr. Alwan. Well she did her thing, I did a urine sample/pap, and the ever present “press test” and of course “everything is fine” in fact everything “seemed” so fine she was 99% convinced I had a kidney infection! well I was, and still am, experiencing some very bad back pains, specifically on my right side. But because I wanted some piece of mind concerning my IUD, see I still wasn’t thinking DDF was back, I was thinking my IUD must be causing these problems somehow, she ordered an ultrasound to “locate” my IUD. That was scheduled for the following Monday morning. I barely made it thru the weekend without going to the ER, the pain had gotten so bad and I’m now convinced its because of a server kidney infection. So Monday morning Chris and I go to Dr. Alwans office. The ultrasound is going well until the wand moves to a certain spot, again, and again I’m in pain. As soon as I said something the tech starting measuring and taking stills very rapidly. and I still didn’t think it was DDF. She said she saw something that could be causing me pain and that I’m not on the Dr’s schedule today but she will try and push me thru so he can take a quick look and give me some piece of mind. Still thought nothing of it, in fact I thought he was going to come in and say “you are all good, nothing to worry about, everything is fine, its just an infection, here are some antibiotics, your good to go” Well needless to say that is not what happened. He confirmed that Drop Dead Fred is back and I have a major problem with ovarian cysts. I have 3 options: 1. Take painkillers and just manage the pain, 2. Take birth control pills ONTOP of having the IUD, 3. Remove the ovaries. Well I was in shock! But I knew what I had to do. The painkillers are great for when I deal with DDF at night or on the weekends but what about Mon-Fri when I’m at work, pain management is not a way to live. Taking birth control on top of having the IUD is out of the question! I feel the birth control has done nothing in the last 20 years so why continue with that! No the only solution is having my ovaries removed! And even though I knew this option was always there, and in fact I would always joke about just get rid of them already, I never thought that I would have to make that decision in such a short time! I thought I would have at least 3 years before dealing with the possibility of DDF again! but nope he reared his ugly face again and it only took a year and half!!

So I’ve scheduled my surgery for November 11th, with pre op on November 3rd, and thank god too, since this past 3 weeks have been a living hell for me and the worst period I have ever experienced in my life, its as if Drop Dead Fred knows his time is almost up!!

Now its October 24th and here we go again! My right ovary is so swollen or the cyst is so big that you can see it thru my skin. Its a big lump and it hurts and its causing severe pain in my lower back, hip, and leg again. So it looks like right on cue, DDR is filling up and its probably going to burst again, less than a month later. At least now I’m prepared, I know what to expect, and I’m not afraid! The next three weeks will be hell, but it will be my hell to endure in order to come out on the other side victorious and Drop Dead Fred is no more!!!

 

MMMm Salad!

Well it never fails, I try to eat clean but once Friday night rolls around I’m ready to devour some serious fried goodies and wash it down with iced cold beer or a Cadillac margi! The best way I know how to get back on track and lose all that belly bloat from the weekend sins, is by sticking with my favorite salad for lunch Mon-Fri.

Pre-cut and wash salad mix – my favorite is the super power blend featuring Kale, Chard and of course Spinach

Canned chicken – yes I know that is NOT considered “clean” but who has time to make a rotisserie chicken every other day!

Baby cucumbers

Pico de Gallo – get all your veggies; onions, tomatoes, cilantro, etc. already chopped and ready to top!

Avocado – an absolute must!! I can eat avocados every day with every meal!!

Lemon Juice – no need for any added fat or added sodium in a dressing!

Mix everything together and TA-DA! A super healthy, filling, cheap lunch that gets rid of belly bloat FAST!

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Content to be added shortly!!

Well I’m going to finally try out this blogging thing!!

I will be discussing and sharing ideas that range from my struggle with quitting smoking (yes I just committed to that) to my weight loss and muscle tone journey!! I will share information from my favorite bloggers and friends!

Please bear with me in the beginning, I have a lot I want to share but not sure how often yet I would like to, or entirely where this adventure will take me!

This particular blog, goodtimesandtanlineca, will be my personal, every day blog. I have not yet decided how political this blog this will be or if I will do a completely separate political blog when the right name comes to mind!! I’ll keep you posted!